be here to love me

2004 documentary of townes van zandt... showed June 05 Seattle film festival~ due for general US release this December~ dvd maybe in the spring. also -Heartworn Highways (1981)-

concerning the book that is the body of the beloved

such a title - ambitious and humble... George Orr is a gorgeous poet and this is a gorgeous book. -Mary Oliver

of a cold front yourself (for you)

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for you had been a cold front yourself lately

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the tension I felt / between the expected and actual / was like that time I came to you, ready / to say goodbye for good, for you had been / a cold front yourself lately, and as I walked in / you laughed and lifted me up in your arms

Linda Pastan ~ known to me from a standardized test, the SAT? came home and wrote down the line, I was 17 or.

I'm younger now-

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I want you to see me on my
own, younger now, a little brash but calm.

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-history my dear friend, years away you say my name, I'm settled down. and I won't give up again. bloomed r.buckner

Menagerie

One morning you awaken too early and the animals are there sleeping peacefully all around you. The hyena. The giraffe with his head cocked petulantly on the lap of the hyena. And you wonder if they've been here all of your life, dozing in the wake of a thousand moons, a thousand crimes that you didn't have stomach enough to commit -
although it would mean this, this miracle among the souls of animals.And you. You with sheen before your eyes that so blinds you from their fine-ness. Finesse, they say, is a matter of competence
without ego. Hold me like flowers in the moon,says the giraffe. You're not sure whether he's speaking to the hyena or to you so you pretend not to hear him. This pretense goes on and on for years
until you have convinced yourself that the giraffe and the hyena are not really there at all. Your denial is so complete it is like an announcement to all the world. Then one night you hear the man inside of you say,Phfaww! Action. Action is the only thing of any consequence! It is the first voice in all the world, and it breaks the eggshell of quiet. The sound shatters the sheen from your eyes with astonishing effortlessness.
Suddenly there is a giraffe weeping like a flower in the moon.You gather the giraffe like a bouquet of your own neglect. And you rock it.You rock it.

by Ally Acker. w/ Gabi, Miles, 1995-6? a post on a wall, third floor, L---- cafe/restaurant/bar - 3 floors. WDC. 17th st? off from Conneticut Ave, Dupont near.

veirs, sia, drowning

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Poetic video of beautiful alt-female tune from Laura Veirs.
slow-QT rw.

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Music video for Breathe Me by Sia, song for the montage ending Six Feet Under.
quicktime? k.

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Uncanny security video of 10yo girl saved from drowning.
BBC w/RealVid via lf rw.

Botticelli beauty blue eyes

Lauren Ambrose married Sam Handel, a photographer (whose photo of his wife accompanies this article).
-You got married when you were 23. What it's been like to be settled in your 20s at a time when most people your age, Claire included, are experimenting with their identities and hopping from one relationship to the next?-
"Well, it's been my experience, so I can't really compare it fairly. I just met the right person, and I really can't imagine my life being any different or any better." oh---

husband

...then Keith -- young, strong, and handsome -- catches the ball and turns to smile at David James Fisher (1969-2044)...